Metaru

it is pointless to actually write this now after(and not before) being inactive for so long, but i'd do it anyway.

so in order for you to know why i am no longer the pixel art mod, i'd give you the info from the very core source:

i realised there was nothing to be done with dA's pixel art gallery. nothing at all. even when the very first thing i said when i took this /job/ was that i was not going to act as a mesiah and change what was an already clusterfuck of a mess, i couldn't just stare and see how my work was tagged in the same category as a ten second megaman sprite edit. how other fellow pixelers work would just be undermined by thousands of daily pieces of shit being submitted as a neverending crap.

i swear i did try to keep my focus and act under what is aparently a GM is suposed to be, but i just couldn't stand the hipocresy. the complete lack of self respect for what was suposed to be an artform. it burned my spirit to be there just staring at it without being really able to do anything to it, specially being a mod.

maybe i never understood what was being a mod after all? i did wanted to make a change. i did wanted to take the good stuff and put it somewhere else above all the shit. maybe i did tried to pull a mesiah after all.

we can't lie to ourselves. dA is not and will never be a place for proper pixel art, not for its enrichment or exposure. its on the very fragile and misunderstood nature of pixel art clashing agaisnt the massiveness of dA. not because pixel art isnt meant to be mainstream(that would be stupid) but rather because not even who, who enjoy this artform can't determine what it is nor set its boundaries.

i'm not one to suddenly act """polite""" and sugercoat what i think about someone's crap, specially if its placed in the field and in the artform i want and asumed as "almost" a lifestyle. dA can surely corrupt one's mind and soul and turn us into mindless cutesy blobs of nothing, unable to disagree in fear of retaliation from others under acts of negativity. can we blame these people? we can't. thats how dA works, thast how the site and its "community" teachs and enforces you to act. and tahts why from the outside dA is shown as nothing but a hive of all sorts of fetishes and redundancy.

certainly i'm not being angst towards the people who legitimately uses the site and has made proper conections to other artists, shared their visions and spirits and got to improve as both human beings and artists. i hope people gives this tool a good use and does improve it despite anything else.

i'm not going to act all sissy and ragequit now. this ain't a defeat nor a sad moment at all. in fact, i'm just going to go back to live my life like i was been doing so and wish luck for the next volunteer. the only thing that i could ever regret is to not grant the people that deserved a DD in time. but then, DD's are utterly empty and meaningless. those who are already aware of their quality as people and artist don't need an CSS badge below their work to know it.

life follows.